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I have nothing to contribute with. There's no point in writing. I'm tired. I'm tired and scared and alone and I don't know what to do. Everyone expects me to be better, but I don't feel better, I feel worse. I'm consumed with horrible thoughts and painful memories that won't go away unless I destroy myself. I don't want to let anyone down. School already stresses me out. The thought of keeping it all together another year to not "compromise" my education, showing up, doing homework and tests, to manage to sleep and keep the binging, purging, and cutting under control... it's exhausting. I'm running on spare batteries and I'm just so damn tired. I just want to forget about everything and sleep.